first weekend of may

Wow it's been so long since I've updated this blog. I need to start updating more often. I have one week left of class, thank god! I have had enough. This semester was so tough and I had so much work. I can't wait for it to be over. I graduate with my associates in Business Administration next weekend, but I am not going to graduation. None of my friends are going and they make it so long! So we are all just going to dinner (my family). That should be fun. Then in the fall, off to Monmouth University I go. I am excited already, but so nervous it's ridiculous. I know I'll be fine once I adjust, but it's just the point of being a transfer student.

Well mom's petscan showed that her tumor shrunk A LOT! That's great news. They said they wouldn't be surprised if when they did the surgery, the tumor was dead. We are all nervous for the surgery, but we know it has to be done. I know it'll all go well, it's just the anticipation. We are looking at the surgery date to be May 27th. I am so mad because I'm going on a cruise from June 6-11. And now I really don't want to go and leave mom. He told her 7-8 days in the hospital and then 6 weeks of NO exercise :(. That gets me so upset! I can't wait for 2009 to just be over. It's been so long and tough already, and we have another 6 months ahead of us with mom's surgery and then her chemo. Only "good" thing that came out of this was that I seperated myself from friends. People who I thought were my friends, well they clearly weren't. If it weren't for my 2 best friends, Katie and Steph, I'm not sure what I'd do. No matter what, they are here for me and for whatever I need. Everyone else never even once asked me how my mom was throughout her entire treatments. Not that I needed sympathy but some "friends" that I was always there for and would drop everything and run everytime they needed me decided to be rude and never even say sorry to hear about mom or are you ok. Ugh just bothers me!

Anyway, I am back to running! I took a few weeks off and now getting back is crazy difficult, but I'm so determined. The distance is no problem, but getting my speed back is far from easy. I'm just going to keep pushing and hope for good results!