Back to Life

Well I was in the Bahamas for a week and it was amazing! I was NOT happy to come back to Jersey, especially because it was so hot on the island. We had such a great trip and a lot of fun! Here are just a few pics I have a thousand on facebook lol:

Mom is doing ok with her chemo and radiation. The tumor is definitely shrinking BUT now she's starting to feel the side effects. She is in her 4th week right now, and has 2 more to go. Then 4-6 weeks recovery, then surgery, then at most 5 months more of chemo :(. It's going to be a very tough year but at least she will be 100% after this is all over! We are all so proud of how well she is doing and how strong she is remaining. She's a fighter!

It's March Already??

Wow it's been so long since I've made an entry on here. I can't believe we are in March already. These months keep flying by.

On a sad note, my mom was diagnosed with rectal cancer about 2 weeks ago. It has been extremely tough on the entire family, and her especially. I almost feel like I'm in this horrible dream, and I can't get out. When we found out, I was in shock, we all were. I cried all day for the first few days, but then I realized I need to be strong. I haven't really cried in front of my mom, but I do every night. Or sometimes when I'm driving alone in my car, I just break down. I can't help it. The oncologist is 99.9% sure she's going to be fine and beat this. It didn't spread and they are starting chemo/radiation tomorrow. From here on out, it's only going to get better. She is going to have her good and bad days, and we all need to accept and understand that. Just everyone please keep her in their prayers. She doesn't deserve this, nobody does. I truly believe that in her case, it's God's way of showing her how strong she is. She doesn't give herself enough credit for what she does, and he wants to prove to her that she needs to. She has a great family and group of friends supporting her; we all know she'll be just fine. For some reason, I am just having a very hard time mentally and emotionally dealing with it. I hardly ever talk about it to people and am just keeping it in.

Due to everything, I haven't been running. It's my own fault, but it's just not the same. I was doing so well with my mileage, then it just stopped. I am very disappointed in myself and beat myself up. I feel like I've gained so much weight (which I really haven't) and deep down inside I am not happy. I have been running here and there, but nothing strict. Everything is just so overwhelming I just feel like I can't handle it.

And on another note, I am leaving for the Bahamas next weekend. I'm going with my 2 friends and need this vacation more than anything. I was going to cancel the trip, but mom wouldn't let me. She wants to me to go and enjoy myself. I am looking so forward to this vacation and can't wait!

Well that's about it for now. Only 8 weeks left of the semester thank goodness. I also got accepted into Monmouth University! I'll be going there in the fall and am thrilled!