Wow it's been so long since I've updated this blog. I need to start updating more often. I have one week left of class, thank god! I have had enough. This semester was so tough and I had so much work. I can't wait for it to be over. I graduate with my associates in Business Administration next weekend, but I am not going to graduation. None of my friends are going and they make it so long! So we are all just going to dinner (my family). That should be fun. Then in the fall, off to Monmouth University I go. I am excited already, but so nervous it's ridiculous. I know I'll be fine once I adjust, but it's just the point of being a transfer student.
Well mom's petscan showed that her tumor shrunk A LOT! That's great news. They said they wouldn't be surprised if when they did the surgery, the tumor was dead. We are all nervous for the surgery, but we know it has to be done. I know it'll all go well, it's just the anticipation. We are looking at the surgery date to be May 27th. I am so mad because I'm going on a cruise from June 6-11. And now I really don't want to go and leave mom. He told her 7-8 days in the hospital and then 6 weeks of NO exercise :(. That gets me so upset! I can't wait for 2009 to just be over. It's been so long and tough already, and we have another 6 months ahead of us with mom's surgery and then her chemo. Only "good" thing that came out of this was that I seperated myself from friends. People who I thought were my friends, well they clearly weren't. If it weren't for my 2 best friends, Katie and Steph, I'm not sure what I'd do. No matter what, they are here for me and for whatever I need. Everyone else never even once asked me how my mom was throughout her entire treatments. Not that I needed sympathy but some "friends" that I was always there for and would drop everything and run everytime they needed me decided to be rude and never even say sorry to hear about mom or are you ok. Ugh just bothers me!
Anyway, I am back to running! I took a few weeks off and now getting back is crazy difficult, but I'm so determined. The distance is no problem, but getting my speed back is far from easy. I'm just going to keep pushing and hope for good results!
Sunday, May 3, 2009
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Back to Life
Well I was in the Bahamas for a week and it was amazing! I was NOT happy to come back to Jersey, especially because it was so hot on the island. We had such a great trip and a lot of fun! Here are just a few pics I have a thousand on facebook lol:
Mom is doing ok with her chemo and radiation. The tumor is definitely shrinking BUT now she's starting to feel the side effects. She is in her 4th week right now, and has 2 more to go. Then 4-6 weeks recovery, then surgery, then at most 5 months more of chemo :(. It's going to be a very tough year but at least she will be 100% after this is all over! We are all so proud of how well she is doing and how strong she is remaining. She's a fighter!
Sunday, March 8, 2009
It's March Already??
Wow it's been so long since I've made an entry on here. I can't believe we are in March already. These months keep flying by.
On a sad note, my mom was diagnosed with rectal cancer about 2 weeks ago. It has been extremely tough on the entire family, and her especially. I almost feel like I'm in this horrible dream, and I can't get out. When we found out, I was in shock, we all were. I cried all day for the first few days, but then I realized I need to be strong. I haven't really cried in front of my mom, but I do every night. Or sometimes when I'm driving alone in my car, I just break down. I can't help it. The oncologist is 99.9% sure she's going to be fine and beat this. It didn't spread and they are starting chemo/radiation tomorrow. From here on out, it's only going to get better. She is going to have her good and bad days, and we all need to accept and understand that. Just everyone please keep her in their prayers. She doesn't deserve this, nobody does. I truly believe that in her case, it's God's way of showing her how strong she is. She doesn't give herself enough credit for what she does, and he wants to prove to her that she needs to. She has a great family and group of friends supporting her; we all know she'll be just fine. For some reason, I am just having a very hard time mentally and emotionally dealing with it. I hardly ever talk about it to people and am just keeping it in.
Due to everything, I haven't been running. It's my own fault, but it's just not the same. I was doing so well with my mileage, then it just stopped. I am very disappointed in myself and beat myself up. I feel like I've gained so much weight (which I really haven't) and deep down inside I am not happy. I have been running here and there, but nothing strict. Everything is just so overwhelming I just feel like I can't handle it.
And on another note, I am leaving for the Bahamas next weekend. I'm going with my 2 friends and need this vacation more than anything. I was going to cancel the trip, but mom wouldn't let me. She wants to me to go and enjoy myself. I am looking so forward to this vacation and can't wait!
Well that's about it for now. Only 8 weeks left of the semester thank goodness. I also got accepted into Monmouth University! I'll be going there in the fall and am thrilled!
On a sad note, my mom was diagnosed with rectal cancer about 2 weeks ago. It has been extremely tough on the entire family, and her especially. I almost feel like I'm in this horrible dream, and I can't get out. When we found out, I was in shock, we all were. I cried all day for the first few days, but then I realized I need to be strong. I haven't really cried in front of my mom, but I do every night. Or sometimes when I'm driving alone in my car, I just break down. I can't help it. The oncologist is 99.9% sure she's going to be fine and beat this. It didn't spread and they are starting chemo/radiation tomorrow. From here on out, it's only going to get better. She is going to have her good and bad days, and we all need to accept and understand that. Just everyone please keep her in their prayers. She doesn't deserve this, nobody does. I truly believe that in her case, it's God's way of showing her how strong she is. She doesn't give herself enough credit for what she does, and he wants to prove to her that she needs to. She has a great family and group of friends supporting her; we all know she'll be just fine. For some reason, I am just having a very hard time mentally and emotionally dealing with it. I hardly ever talk about it to people and am just keeping it in.
Due to everything, I haven't been running. It's my own fault, but it's just not the same. I was doing so well with my mileage, then it just stopped. I am very disappointed in myself and beat myself up. I feel like I've gained so much weight (which I really haven't) and deep down inside I am not happy. I have been running here and there, but nothing strict. Everything is just so overwhelming I just feel like I can't handle it.
And on another note, I am leaving for the Bahamas next weekend. I'm going with my 2 friends and need this vacation more than anything. I was going to cancel the trip, but mom wouldn't let me. She wants to me to go and enjoy myself. I am looking so forward to this vacation and can't wait!
Well that's about it for now. Only 8 weeks left of the semester thank goodness. I also got accepted into Monmouth University! I'll be going there in the fall and am thrilled!
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Snow Day :)
Well I started classes only 3 weeks ago and this morning is the 3rd time they have had to cancel classes! Yesterday, we left class early and they wound up shutting down the school because of the snow. I taught my Zumba at work and closed the gym right after. The roads got so bad out and the snow was past my ankles. This morning, my class was cancelled!
So besides that, I had a 5k on Sunday and it was def not a PR. But I'm ok with that because I know I will improve running in the summer weather. 
I'm so beyond excited for the spring and the nice weather. The snow is nice, but I'm over it already! Give me the hot weather!!!!
I'm so beyond excited for the spring and the nice weather. The snow is nice, but I'm over it already! Give me the hot weather!!!!This weekend, I have to go to the art museum for my art appreciation class. Never been to one, so I am kind of looking forward to it, and plus it's in NYC so we can do some shopping after! And then Saturday is our running club yearly party. It's in gorgeous Spring Lake, and is always a fun time!
Monday, January 19, 2009
Snowy Monday
Well this past Friday was my birthday!! I was not feeling well on my actual birthday, but we went out to dinner with my best friend and her family on Saturday to celebrate. Then Sunday, my close friends and family came over for dinner and cake! 
Also, the Wednesday before all my friends took me to dinner!! 
It was non-stopping celebrating. We had such a great time!
Well today, I worked from 7:30-10:00 and then again from 1:30-9:00 because the girl who always works today is on vacation. But it's not as bad as I thought. I got in a 6 mile run on the treadmill!! That's the absolute longest I've ever run on the TM because usually by mile 3 I'm ready to die haa I get so bored!!! But it was a good run, I ran a steady 9:47 mm. I was happy with that!
I start classes on Wednesday eek!!! I'm excited, but not at the same time! I don't mind going to class, but hate the workload. O well I'll survive.
So they predicted flurries for today and right now it's snowing like crazy. Definitely NOT flurries!!! It's been snowing for like 2 hours and is sticking. They all say how icy it is ughhhhhhh!!!!!!
Also, the Wednesday before all my friends took me to dinner!! 
It was non-stopping celebrating. We had such a great time!Well today, I worked from 7:30-10:00 and then again from 1:30-9:00 because the girl who always works today is on vacation. But it's not as bad as I thought. I got in a 6 mile run on the treadmill!! That's the absolute longest I've ever run on the TM because usually by mile 3 I'm ready to die haa I get so bored!!! But it was a good run, I ran a steady 9:47 mm. I was happy with that!
I start classes on Wednesday eek!!! I'm excited, but not at the same time! I don't mind going to class, but hate the workload. O well I'll survive.
So they predicted flurries for today and right now it's snowing like crazy. Definitely NOT flurries!!! It's been snowing for like 2 hours and is sticking. They all say how icy it is ughhhhhhh!!!!!!
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Giants vs. Eagles
I'M IN SHOCK THAT THE GIANTS LOST!! ELI PICKED THE WRONG DAY TO PLAY HORRIBLY. UGHHHH. WE ARE VERY UPSET!!!!!
I HAVE WORKED OUT EVERY DAY STRAIGH FOR 6 DAYS AND I WAS GOING TO RUN TODAY, BUT MY BODY WAS JUST TOO SORE. SO I TOOK OFF, BUT I'LL RUN TOMORROW HOPEFULLY. I WORK FROM 7:30-1:30 SO I HAVE NO EXCUSE!! I BETTER GET MY A** ON THE TREADMILL WHILE I'M THERE.
MOM IS DOING SO MUCH BETTER. THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR KEEPING HER IN YOUR THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS. I CAN'T WAIT TO RUN WITH HER AGAIN. IT'S JUST NOT THE SAME.
WELL THIS WEEK I WORK A LOT AND FRIDAY IS MY 20TH BIRTHDAY!! I CAN'T BELIEVE IT. EACH YEAR GOES FASTER AND FASTER. BUT MY FRIENDS ARE ALL TAKING ME OUT WEDNESDAY NIGHT FOR DINNER, AND I HAVE SOMETHING EACH DAY OF THE WEEKEND. IT SHOULD BE A BLAST!!!
ON A DIFFERENT NOTE, I START CLASSES NEXT WEDNESDAY. I CAN'T BELIEVE BREAK IS OVER. THIS SEMESTER IS GOING TO BE A LITTLE DIFFICULT. I'M DEFINITELY NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO CHEMISTRY. I HAVE A 3 HOUR CHEM LAB ON TUESDAY MORNINGS, THEN A 2 HOUR 45 MINUTE CHEM LECTURE THAT AFTERNOON. BUT I DON'T HAVE A CHOICE. I GET MY ASSOCIATES DEGREE IN MAY IN BUSINESS ADMINISTRATION, THEN OFF TO MONMOUTH UNIVERSITY IN THE FALL. WOAHH!!!
I HAVE WORKED OUT EVERY DAY STRAIGH FOR 6 DAYS AND I WAS GOING TO RUN TODAY, BUT MY BODY WAS JUST TOO SORE. SO I TOOK OFF, BUT I'LL RUN TOMORROW HOPEFULLY. I WORK FROM 7:30-1:30 SO I HAVE NO EXCUSE!! I BETTER GET MY A** ON THE TREADMILL WHILE I'M THERE.
MOM IS DOING SO MUCH BETTER. THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR KEEPING HER IN YOUR THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS. I CAN'T WAIT TO RUN WITH HER AGAIN. IT'S JUST NOT THE SAME.
WELL THIS WEEK I WORK A LOT AND FRIDAY IS MY 20TH BIRTHDAY!! I CAN'T BELIEVE IT. EACH YEAR GOES FASTER AND FASTER. BUT MY FRIENDS ARE ALL TAKING ME OUT WEDNESDAY NIGHT FOR DINNER, AND I HAVE SOMETHING EACH DAY OF THE WEEKEND. IT SHOULD BE A BLAST!!!
ON A DIFFERENT NOTE, I START CLASSES NEXT WEDNESDAY. I CAN'T BELIEVE BREAK IS OVER. THIS SEMESTER IS GOING TO BE A LITTLE DIFFICULT. I'M DEFINITELY NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO CHEMISTRY. I HAVE A 3 HOUR CHEM LAB ON TUESDAY MORNINGS, THEN A 2 HOUR 45 MINUTE CHEM LECTURE THAT AFTERNOON. BUT I DON'T HAVE A CHOICE. I GET MY ASSOCIATES DEGREE IN MAY IN BUSINESS ADMINISTRATION, THEN OFF TO MONMOUTH UNIVERSITY IN THE FALL. WOAHH!!!
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
GO RANGERS!!!!!!!!
Me and Uncle Sly
Rangers vs. Penguins game last night and of course the RANGERS won 4-0!! It was so much fun. Of course before the game, we walked around the city and went into all the stores! Clearly, we couldn't afford anything, although I did pick out sunglasses in Fendi for only $1,000!!! haah But they were gorgeous. It was a great day to be in the city. Was not as crowded as usual and not too cold, except on the walk back to Port Authority!!!
Rockefeller Center
Today I covered my mom's class and I definitely felt it! It's been like 3 weeks since I hardcore worked out. I just need to get back into it. Tonight, I go back to work and I'm hoping to get a run in while I'm there!
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